My willpower isn’t as strong as I thought.
I cheated hardcore today.
I’m not going to make excuses as to why or anything. One moment I was so full I could barely finish my tomato soup, the next, I’m eating tomato, and mozzarella sandwich and a huge bowl of Trix.
The sandwich wasn’t horribly unhealthy but the cereal DEFINITELY was. And considering that I wasn’t hungry when I ate it, this is a huge setback.
I’m not letting myself give up, though. I’m debating either continuing with my diet from where I stand and just try harder, or starting over from scratch (Stage 1) to let myself detox from the junk food I filled myself with.
I’ve heard that when things start to get particularly difficult, go back to the beginning. That’s what all the people in my Lap Band Facebook groups say. That’s kind of what I’m leaning towards. Right now I’m six days into the full liquid stage (Stage 3) of my diet. If I started over, I would start again with the two week pre-op diet (Stage 1), three days clear liquid diet (Stage 2, which I can handle a lot better now that I have supplements and a juicer), and then start Stage 3 again.
Either way, I am going to have to burn a lot of calories to make up for today’s setback.